how do I feel now?

I wish I could tell you.

TET<3

was sOOOO Fun!
its like, the best so far.
went to plt yesterday, and ate yogurt w/ tina, then spent the day with tina.
temple last night, was a blastttt. me, tina, & her sister made it on tv! HOLLLLLLLA
saw Thach & his brothaaaa ;)
bought the last eggrolls MUAHAHA!
once they started to light the firecrackers @12. it was it man..after that, the whole night, I couldn't breathe. I was literally coughing my lungs out. horrifying, but doing it again next year. =)

today I didn't go to school, woke up and went to eat with my mamaaaaa, and then went to temple. we prayed, and I got a red env, & a tangerine from a monk :D
then went to my mom's old boss's tet party. THAT was fun! I got to see my old friends, =') and saw tina for 2mins. loved today. oh and I gambled, I lost money.......damn

this is the day that im probably the happiest to be asian. =) the best, joyful, freakin day of the year. and it gets better everyyear.

im reconnecting a broken bond between me & an old friend. he turned out really nice, and we're gonna be close again, WATCH! =)

8:49am

I wokeup at fucking 849. :| I wanted to wakeup at like 12 or 1. DAMN. because if I did, tonight would be closer than it is right now. its gonna be a long dayyy cus I gotta look forward to it.

why so gloomy, skyyyyy? :/

im excitedddd, been waiting for tet forevvvvaaaa.
tet=$$$$=crawfish&f21
yayyyyyyyyyyyy!


going tonight with tina&myblondiejenny like fORSURE.
I hope no bitches arrive, because they goin be damn sorry they did. =)

prechinesenewyear

today was a blast.
spent it w/ tina! =)
we bonded, it was nice.
ate a lot..........
I can't wait for tomorrow night, probably go over to tina's and GAMBLe! then around 1030pm go CELEBRATE :D fullll night, gonna pull an allnighter

lots of songs today!
*gives you hell- american rejects
*sunshine- jesse mccartney<3
*right round- flo rida (tinas)

rain

its cold outside, but between us its worse in here

gloomy, gloooooomy day
OMGOMGGG TETS MONDAY!
tet eve sunday night, =))))))
bestfriend&maybe my blondie jenny!<3
im not going to school monday, bitches can miss me.

lingering

day 2, still as frustrated as yesterday. no difference.

me&tina are ready, and pumpd for tetfest. for the good and bad reasons. =)
lets say we're gonna be dressed kinda casual that day.. ;)


I've been PISSED OFF at my fucking teacher. and specifically one, one that I ABSOLUTELY LOVED in the beginning. till she wouldn't stop making fun of me. like, do you not know when enough is enough? damn.

I've been a mad person lately..not good.

WEDNESDAY

SOME PEOPLE JUST NEED TO STOP BEING TWO FACED BITCHES.
YOU FUCKING WHORE I HOPE YOU GO TO HELL WITH THAT JACKASS.
AND I DONT THINK I EVER WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOU AGAIN, OR TALK TO YOU AGAIN.
well except for one thing, fuck you

pain

I wore my gold gladz today to school, I haven't worn them in so long. since summer, at the teen vogue fashion show. those were gooood memories.
anyway, I was fine first period. then when I started walking out of the class, I couldn't walk. my feet started hurting like no fucking other. and after 2nd period, it was a little better, I walked slower. and 5th period, we had to run 3 FUCKING LAPS. I almost died, my feet were in horrible pain man. and walking to the car afterschool, was just rediculous. I walked with a limp by the end of the day. :|

FUCKING MATH TEACHER, DIDN'T LET US WATCH THE FUCKING INAUGARATION THING. I was mad, its a part of history and now I gotta watch it on RERUN THAT BITCH. she told us its cus she's a republican so she doesn't understand why people make such a big deal out of it. Stupid fucker..other classes got to watch it..thank god she's moving to bell. now she can give other people hell and stay the fuck away from me

late start tomorrow, gonna go get some donuts on the way to school. I wanted to go to breakfast, but my mom won't take me cus its too early..

I LOVE YOU KFARE

mlk

no school today, yay! I woke up at 2 today..biked to get food at 230. it was so fucking risky& scary. I am still traumatized about what happened on new years eve. damn that old korean guy.

I bought a bag from f21.com today, im excited for it to come. I haven't bought something online in a while.
I haven't gotten any magazines either..

I don't want to go to schooooooool tomorrow ;(

sunday

tomorrow no school, YES!
went to boiling crab today, it was sssssssooo goooood. and got some yummieyo, our picture's still up there :D and me&katelyn went to take cues. fun. im still full, and we went at 1. ha!
kfare saw me, that little creep ;) I couldn't find her though..

probably going to laguna's tomorrow or something

KABUKI

this blog is meant for jan17, im an hour and a half late. DINNER was so good.....food came 4 hours later, we got 15 dreamboats :) and I was forced to switch seats like 3 times. -_-
I love gwen and her amazingness. I just love it
it was interesting..today in the middle of dinner.
I bonded with twinkie? =))
and yeah. met some people..
the sexyass waiter put his arm around me ;) WOO.
I wish I could upload gwens singing video..fucking computer is still broken. :'(

family

grandma&pa;
I didn't realize how much I miss you when you're gone. I know, you can't always be around, but I miss you both so so so much. its only been a month or so. I didn't even get to say goodbye. COME BACK ASAP

I started to think of them because tomorrow is my uncles wedding. I am not happy for it one bit. I hate it. I never got a say in it. I wasn't even invited! fucker. he's across the world marrying some lady that I've met a few times 2-3 years ago. I hate it. now she's part of the family. and he's not gonna be here for tet like how he always is for me since I was born. its different now, things aren't as important as they use to be.

this is a fucking depressing night. but I got something sorta good out of it. im wearing black saturday. LOL, withmaabooooo<3 I was really planning to wear white, I even had an idea of the dress, but NO. :) black. becus im gonna be taken for the night. :D im waiting, dying for the weekend, as usual.
excited for saturday, im gonna get to see so many people<3

had zlackets today, so fucking good.
*official favorite song: lovestory- taylor swift

starbucks

so I went to the mall today with lynn, and she left. and I passed by this coffee place like twice, and I started to have a massive cravin for starbucks. so on the way home, I asked my mom to stop by so I can get some tea. she made..the fucking..biggest deal out of it. and so I was like nevermind, I don't want it anymore. and she got ALLLLL crazy. so I ended up getting it :D

last day of the weekend: why does school have to be sooo awful? :'( I wanna go to winterformal, IF ONLY SOMEONE WOULD ASK ME :(


okay..I already talked to tina about this last night.

but..K: lately I've felt so left out with your LIFE. I wish you would just open up and talk to me, and tell me everything like how you use to. I can't believe what I heard last night, I almost started crying, I tried to hold it in. like tina said, its absurd. I care for you so much. I want to talk to you too, and I wish I could be there when you need me, but I can't be because I hardly know anything about you anymore. I hope you know ill always be here when you need someone to talk to, or cry to, or laugh to, or anything in between. im outdated on everything, and I hope you can let me in sometime in the longrun. we need to spend more time together, I love you. I don't know how to tell you that upfront, because..im stupid LOL, sorry.

*feel better andy

BLTT

today was badass.
it was a lot more fun than I thought itd be
-went to phobolsa with mama LOL
-grandmas
-boiling crab &got ignored by all the waiters
-then CUES! it was fucking hot in there..

lynn,thach,&brandon!<3


I got new bed everything yesterday..
brown bed sheets & pillow cases
and 2 brown cheetah/zebra blankets
finaaaaallly! its been forever since I got a new bed..everything. :)

*thach owes me tastea cus im TALLER

i'm a little late

on the whole blogspot thing. i made a resolution that i'm going to start blogging, and i initially blogged on myspace, but thats so..unlegit. so then i planned on making a blogspot but, my computer broke. so then i can't make one on my phone, soooo..i'm 8 days late. better late than never.

i'll say this year is at a very good but interesting start. there are some good things, and some weird things that i would never expect to happen, like ever. i made a new friend, i started out hating her, with a passion. but now, we're pretty..alright. we're actually, kind of close, but not really? we're just friendly.
new years was good! spent it at thl's, FUN. ;)

monday was something i've been dreading for..ever. i really, truly, did not want to go back to school. i'm not over him, and i know coming back would make it worse. i actually sort of forgot about him over break, but it's alllll back now. thanks school, i deeply hate you now.

BOYS
so we've said our hi's & bye's. it's sort of the same old, i try to avoid him a little more just so i can try to get over him. HAHA, useless..today was really, something i wouldn't want to go through again. i got some bad news..and i didn't get to talk to my loverboy. he chased after me. that's something new. but he didn't finish, he left before he caught up to me. i was dissapointed. i plan on talking to him tomorrow, just to get everything over with. i hope it all goes well.