nerves

the most nerve racking thing.
for me right now, asking adults for drinks.
family thinks i'm goody twoshoes.

i had horrible anxiety yesterday during 4th period.
i got into this bad sugar rush while brookie was having a.d.d.
and so..i couldn't focus on anything.
and then i started having mini anxiety attacks.
i felt like throwing up, thinking about...
anyway, yesterday night made everything much better.

tonight too, katelyn got me an angel game tickets. YAY
tomorrow night!!!!!!!!!!!!!

good day

opened my eyes to my phone ringing at 1030
'yo we're late, be there in two minutes. hop in my car and we go.'
shit..i fucken SPRANG out of bed like there was no tomorrow
like half asleep bumping into everything
wiped my eyes a little bit to fix my face, hair in a bun, vneck and shorts. headed straight downstairs, all i said was 'BYE' to david, and he was kinda like..wtf?! ran out the door, and tina pulled in.
PERFECT ASS TIMING. literally, two minutes.
went to albertsons, sped walked everywhere like it was a fucken marathon
went back, made the cake. and had to go back to the store 4 times because we kept running short on things. made such a nice cake for matt, by that time it was like 130.
matt knocked on the door right when we finished, and we freaked out cus we didn't want him to see that we did anything, even though the kitchen looked like a crime scene.
so we like slapped foil onto that shit, and we were like OH SHIT. fucked up the cake..but it was still nice. mattt loved it!

then headed to tgif's, got there at 2. waited for kevin till 345..
had some BOMB. ASS. FOOD. then they sang happy bday to matt.
so the fucken waiter, gave us the check. and all it said was, "happy birthday. TOTAL: $2.17"
and we were like oh holy shit fuck. cus our meal was like 70bucks worth. and we were like OKAY. OKAY COOL. gave the waitress a 15 dollar tip, and left a 5 on the table.
walked to the car, we were 5 ft away. the waitress ran after us and stopped us, she gave us the ACTUAL check.........$77..
WE COULDA FUCKEN MADE IT TO THE CARRRRRRRRRRRRR before she came out!!!!
but we walked really sloww looking at tc's and shit. : (
so we had to pay..damn..

how about an update

went to the football game yesterday with kailey, it was sad in the beginning.
and the rest of the game was pretty boring.. we won, but i mean.. 65-6. i think that says it all..the person i came to watch play didn't even get to play.. :(
i DID get the varsity football yearbook thing, sexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxuhzzzz.

made a bad ass looking cake for andy today.
sorry about the hair guys................HEHEHEHEHEHE
it was a good cake i guess. :)

birthday's coming up! SATURDAAAAAAAAY! sweet 16 holllaa.
probably gonna go to catalina with my girlfraaandz. :)
movies are SO sucky lately, i haven't seen a movie in like a month.
like, how in the hell are you suppose to have a movie date when there's shit movies out?! :(
but shows on the other hand, DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES premieres tomorrow!
been dying for this.

new friends old friend

a lot of birthdays lately.
more birthdays mean more baking!
cakes, cakes, cakes. i'm totally taking advantage of this to boost up my baking skillz.
i sound so cheesy..

school is kinda boring.
but i love the new friends i made, they're the chilllllest.
i love junior year better than any other hs years so far, so i guess..it's not THAT bad. haha

i miss my friend summer, she moved to vegas. :(
i miss a lot of people, they're there. but not here.
i get upset thinking about it, but if they're meant to be here they would be.
i guess it's all okay. new friends is always great.

9/14

damn, even though the sun was out today, it was probably the gloomiest day at school. =/
literally, almost everyone..was crying, or extremely down. even the teachers. one of my teachers couldn't even teach because he couldn't handle it, so we had a sub and just relaxed all period. they had professional help in the library for people who needed it, and every period the teacher would spend at least 10-15 minutes talking about what happened friday night. they were surprisingly understanding, so we didn't have to do much all day. i feel so awful =( we had two announcements throughout the day about it, and his pictures were probably on every single wall of the school about atleast 20 times per wall. signs EVERY where. and almost everyone in school was wearing black, with the white&red ribbon from his memorial.

afterschool when i was walking out of school, i stopped at the argo head, and there was this HUUGE shrine for him. like 30 candles, and like soo many flowers, balloons, and pictures. =( everyone gathered around, some were tearing up. sighh, so so sad =( seriously, like even if you tried to be like happy and shit, it'll probably work for about 20 minutes, 25 at the most. and then it all comes back down.
i didn't personally know him, but honestly, much love to him & his family.
rest in peace.

by the way, FUUUUCK kanye! taylor ftwwww

what a trip

Happy Birthday Vannie!

last day of summer, man.. this has definately been the best summer YET.
the only summer i've met so many people, done so many new things, the only summer i that didn't see katelyn or go surfing once. =/
wooow, this summer-- was so great.. from jobro concert, to sleeping in all day.
got to hang out with temecula kids, got to spend a lot of time with tina, patrick, matt, teresa, andy. jeeeeeeezus, i seriously DON'T want to leave this all behind!
it was such a good time. so FREEE, forreal. didn't go anywhere far, but i didn't need to, i had all the time in the world i needed here.

i loveeee you summmerrrrrrr )':
junior year now, please let's just get this over with.
i think i KILLED my lungs this summer..

hollywood fail

I AM SOOO SORRY YOU GUYS!!
was suppose to go to hollywood with my girl today..
special urban outfitter's sale at space15twenty.
i feel so bad.....i woke up at 10 and i had like 1000 missed calls
i'm sososososooo sorry so so so so so so sorry dalena especially..
planned all this, even changed the date so i could go, but i didn't make it.
i feel so horrible, and i'm like, out of this world bummed that i couldn't go.
andy called me too, i didn't know why.
till he told me he was there too, and richard =/
i'm so upset! i wanted to go so badddd, i was really looking forward to this.
instead, had to go eat dimsum with family -___-
and go to the mall byy maself..shit.
sorry guys..

Here's a thought;

Kay..so um, I was holdin out on this blog because it's about Andy. And I was going to wait until his birthday to write a blog about him, and make him feel all special and stuff; And then he made me write a blog about him right now..I don't know which way this should go. Cause I wanna go all deep and shit on the birthday blog, but then..now what?

So I met Andy through Vannie, at Bella Terra. When I first saw him, my first thought was 'Dang, he's cute..damnit he's taken..' HAHAHA, unexpected. It was a hi, nice to meet you moment, and that's it. And then the next time I saw him I was like hi! He was like '..?' I was like oh I met you once remember? He was like um, I don't think so. I was like oh..felt a little dumb there! And then I actually started talking to him when we were hanging out at Tina Le's house during winter break. I was like, wtf. is he doing here. LOL, I didn't even think he knew Tina.

So weird story, we were all there that night, and everyone got his number and was like texting around and shit. And I asked for his number, and he was like 'UH, NO'. and I was like wtf..and then I got a creepy text 10 mins later about something sex related..HAHAHAHA. Can't forget that.

Yeah, started talking more and more through out the year. Lately, like ever since beginning of summer? Or a little bit before that, I would say, we hung out more! I even got to see Shwayze for the first time with him!! And I got to know him better, he's SURPRISINGLY a very good friend..Even though 75% of the time, he picks on me, and is a MCJERKFACE --I told him about how mean he always his, and I tell him to stop. But nope. He always goes 'MAN UP'. whatevaa. All I really need to know is when I have problems here and there, he's a good listener! I know I'll always have someone to talk to. He knows I'm there for him too. :') OKAY no, I'm getting too deep. I gotta save some of that shit for the birthday blog.

A;KJSDALKDFJKL;AJDSF that's it for now. I'll get into details LATER.
Man, I love Andy. :)