Sunday, February 28, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
ayo nigger.
your best friends need to STOP talking to me.
i know they hate me, and i hate them.
don't be actin like we're homies now or what not okay..
they be sayin hi to me everyday in class, and asking about you constantly.
the fuckkkk? they're your bff's shouldn't they know about everything already? -_-
they're like, taunting me or some shit.
ass holes. all of you. go away, gtfo of my lifeeeee!
haha, i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 2010.
on a brighter note, DRIVERS TEST IN ELEVEN DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i know they hate me, and i hate them.
don't be actin like we're homies now or what not okay..
they be sayin hi to me everyday in class, and asking about you constantly.
the fuckkkk? they're your bff's shouldn't they know about everything already? -_-
they're like, taunting me or some shit.
ass holes. all of you. go away, gtfo of my lifeeeee!
haha, i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 2010.
on a brighter note, DRIVERS TEST IN ELEVEN DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, February 21, 2010
meant to be broken?
commitment. ever since january first, everything is gone!
my whole view on boys, relationships, gone!
no more commitments, no more relationships for a while.
i thought i was always going to be the "commitment" type person,
but i guess one person can change my whole view on everything.
commitment. starting march 1st, gonna start DIETING?!
lol, and then working out at katelyn's with her & tinaa:)
yess. lol time to get fit for spring break! haha but who knows,
i always break my promises for myself, i hope i can keep it this time :(
commitment. even when he's tied down, he still does DUMB ass shit.
i'm so glad i'm not in her position, being lied to straight to my face.
i passed that shit, and i learned my lesson. i don't get how he can just
lie through his teeth, and go around doing idiotic things like that.
wow i'm pretty shocked but you know, i guess some people never learn?
and some people just don't understand commitment.
*i'm..no, WE, are always here for you, through anything. and you know that.
practically family, i would never do anything to hurt you in any situation.
please, smile. stop being so down, please. :( it pains me to see you in such a
rough patch. it wasn't your fault, it had nothing to do with you. don't feel bad,
you know no one planned it, i can't stress it enough. please, no more crying. you don't deserve your family bagging on you, you don't deserve all these financial complications, you don't deserve this big headache! you don't deserve any of this, let me tell you. if anything, you deserve the best!:) and you deserve sunshine, and happiness. don't worry too much, okay? you know we're here for anything, i know you know. and i know you know i love you sososososo muchhhhh. I'M ALWAYS HERE!!!!!
my whole view on boys, relationships, gone!
no more commitments, no more relationships for a while.
i thought i was always going to be the "commitment" type person,
but i guess one person can change my whole view on everything.
commitment. starting march 1st, gonna start DIETING?!
lol, and then working out at katelyn's with her & tinaa:)
yess. lol time to get fit for spring break! haha but who knows,
i always break my promises for myself, i hope i can keep it this time :(
commitment. even when he's tied down, he still does DUMB ass shit.
i'm so glad i'm not in her position, being lied to straight to my face.
i passed that shit, and i learned my lesson. i don't get how he can just
lie through his teeth, and go around doing idiotic things like that.
wow i'm pretty shocked but you know, i guess some people never learn?
and some people just don't understand commitment.
*i'm..no, WE, are always here for you, through anything. and you know that.
practically family, i would never do anything to hurt you in any situation.
please, smile. stop being so down, please. :( it pains me to see you in such a
rough patch. it wasn't your fault, it had nothing to do with you. don't feel bad,
you know no one planned it, i can't stress it enough. please, no more crying. you don't deserve your family bagging on you, you don't deserve all these financial complications, you don't deserve this big headache! you don't deserve any of this, let me tell you. if anything, you deserve the best!:) and you deserve sunshine, and happiness. don't worry too much, okay? you know we're here for anything, i know you know. and i know you know i love you sososososo muchhhhh. I'M ALWAYS HERE!!!!!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
bad start?
this year has been HORRIBLE!
i must admit, there has been some REALLY good highs throughout the year,
but over-all, it's been the worst so far :( i kinda had a feeling from the start this wouldn't go so well, but why would i admit it; i hoped for the best.
first off, very beginning of january, got thrown and played around. fml. made me develop MAD trust issues towards guys relationship wise. i still cannot trust any guy, so i'm over the idea of relationships. no more, ain't goin tie me down.
then, beginning of february, i come to find out there's been secrets kept from me. no big, made me develop trust issues towards EVERYONE. and i didn't know who to look at for trust, honesty. but i always have my bestfriend, and i'm recovering from that anyway. already passed that.
then beginning of chinese new years, i thought this would turn my year around considering every chinese new years through out my life time has been amazing, and it was amazing. except for the car crash from that dumb ass asian texting while driving, caused neck/back pain for almost a week, and gave everyone STRESS, headaches, etc. -_-
sigh, could this year get any worse? :/
fuck it---when in doubt, start driving to shisha
i must admit, there has been some REALLY good highs throughout the year,
but over-all, it's been the worst so far :( i kinda had a feeling from the start this wouldn't go so well, but why would i admit it; i hoped for the best.
first off, very beginning of january, got thrown and played around. fml. made me develop MAD trust issues towards guys relationship wise. i still cannot trust any guy, so i'm over the idea of relationships. no more, ain't goin tie me down.
then, beginning of february, i come to find out there's been secrets kept from me. no big, made me develop trust issues towards EVERYONE. and i didn't know who to look at for trust, honesty. but i always have my bestfriend, and i'm recovering from that anyway. already passed that.
then beginning of chinese new years, i thought this would turn my year around considering every chinese new years through out my life time has been amazing, and it was amazing. except for the car crash from that dumb ass asian texting while driving, caused neck/back pain for almost a week, and gave everyone STRESS, headaches, etc. -_-
sigh, could this year get any worse? :/
fuck it---when in doubt, start driving to shisha
Friday, February 5, 2010
wrap
finals was so shitty. it was not a good week!
i didn't study much.. eh.
been goin to all the basketball games, made me lose my voice =/
went to roscoes for the first time yesterday with andy, twinkie, & thl.
and today, went to corona beach for the first time w/ thl & andy, then went to fashion island. afterrr, we went to watch dear john with vannie & kristina. i kinda cried, it was sad.. andy teared up ^__^. and we did it all in the rain. sup bitches.
i haven't talked to him for exactly a month.
such a dramatic jump from talking 24/7 to not knowing that neither of us even exist.
i'm not gonna lie, it does pain me to see them together. kills me a little, but less and less everyday. and soon enough, it'll be gone. and i'm not gonna lie, he IS on my mind constantly, but again. less and less everyday, and soon it'll be gone. i'm almost at that point, i can do it! ^___^ i almost gave it up, and run back to him, but nah. i'm not thaat weak. hahaa, we ended off on bad terms, and i don't like that feeling. perhaps in the long run, things would change. but right now, it doesn't matter.
my family. we're all emotionally stressed about the recent incident. we'll all be okay, can't wait for the day he walks through those doors, and i get to see him. the last time to say goodbye, was so much more painful than i thought it'd be. but it's not the end of the world, haha.
i didn't study much.. eh.
been goin to all the basketball games, made me lose my voice =/
went to roscoes for the first time yesterday with andy, twinkie, & thl.
and today, went to corona beach for the first time w/ thl & andy, then went to fashion island. afterrr, we went to watch dear john with vannie & kristina. i kinda cried, it was sad.. andy teared up ^__^. and we did it all in the rain. sup bitches.
i haven't talked to him for exactly a month.
such a dramatic jump from talking 24/7 to not knowing that neither of us even exist.
i'm not gonna lie, it does pain me to see them together. kills me a little, but less and less everyday. and soon enough, it'll be gone. and i'm not gonna lie, he IS on my mind constantly, but again. less and less everyday, and soon it'll be gone. i'm almost at that point, i can do it! ^___^ i almost gave it up, and run back to him, but nah. i'm not thaat weak. hahaa, we ended off on bad terms, and i don't like that feeling. perhaps in the long run, things would change. but right now, it doesn't matter.
my family. we're all emotionally stressed about the recent incident. we'll all be okay, can't wait for the day he walks through those doors, and i get to see him. the last time to say goodbye, was so much more painful than i thought it'd be. but it's not the end of the world, haha.
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