HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

COULD IIIIIII laugh any harder
YOUUU wanna tell ME about immature,
let's fucken TALK about immature.
no, let's not. let's just look at you,
and i think everyone will get the idea.

notorious

as if you can outrun me,
as if you can fight me off,
i'm designed to kill
edward cullen is my shining star.

so, right now. at this second
i'm so annoyed at everything, at everyone, at the tv, at every little thing right now
i think cus i'm really tired.

>


got bored.

later gater

on my usual days, I wake up around 650.
before the time change, 635-640.
today, 717.
and im usually out the door by 720.
I actually made it by 722. crazy shit. I barely did my hair, and I had no makeup.
I wore a tshirt&shorts.
so laid back and like..Blah.
I fixed myself up in first period though.
never again!!

im so tired today, I slept LATE last night thass why. talked to bff,nick,&pat till 12 LOLOL
laaaaavs them.
and paul mandap. unless he doesn't hangout with me then its ova.

me & tina

spring break=korruption

so, mall

was really fun.
spent time with katelyn & her dad
bought some STUFFF :)
went to bella terra after
and then went to watch monsters vs. aliens
then went to eat
now home!
i went out all weekend, thank BUDDHA.
i really didn't spare any time staying at home this weekend, spent too much time at home last weekend

sudifed

is probably my life saver
so is this nasal spray thing
i have like, the worst spring allergies
and i HATE HATE HATE it
i can't breath most of the day. and this medicine shit. helps :)
just a quicky morning blog.
gonna go to the mall now, YAY

all day

i had a busy day from the moment i woke up!
i opened my eyes with a phone call, and 5 mins later i'm getting ready
an hour after i finished i went to eat, then headed straight to the beach
and met up with chris & met a crapload of his friends.
we found seashells, and got FREEEE stuff.
and then, we took so many pictures my camera like..almost ran out of memory
then chris's dad took me, jasmine, darla, & chris back to their place
which is amazin. i love it, it's huge
and we watched sweeney todd, then mr. woodcock
then me & chris walked darla back home, and her house was huge, and fucking nice too. i was like. shit..makes my house like..'wtf'
and i stayed at chris's till 11pm or someshit
and right when i got home, tina, nick, and matt came by
stayed at my house till almost 12
and left. and now i'm here. TIRED.
i had a really fun day. well, i'm actually not DONE yet.
i'm helping chris plan out his spring break pool party right now
LOLOL, busy me. such a random day, i loved it.
TOMORRORORORW: mall with katelyn

yay

I got twilight today
im hella excited, I just finished watching it. so intense.

that's it. ima call jasmine & talk about my bf with her, LOL bye :)

Night,

i just went driving..
at night..
that was fucking scary, i tried to back out and i couldn't see SHIT
but anyway, it was fun
i was surprised how nervous i was, i mean..i haven't driven since summer
i got so nervous, i fogged up the car LMAO LMAO LMAO
yeah. i drove like 20-25 mph ROFL, i scared david. :D

i ate a sandwich for dinner half an hour ago..
i can't believe i ate the whole thing after the two-day-no-appetite run
i seriously, feel like throwing up.
i hate being this down, and then up again.
being mixed all day, and the past 2 days, gave me a headache.

OH! so i talked about making a bunny cake today in foods,
but i didn't get to explain it. okay.
so we made it, baked it yesterday
then we cutted it and shaped it today.
i iced it, and made the face and iced the outside of the bunny ears
we got it into the 'foods class' contest, and a shitload of people
came into judge the cakes, i think we got like. 3rd, or 4th, i don't know
after they finished judging, the judges started taking
they took one of our bunny ears -________-
SOME people in the group kept EATING the damn ear & bow tie of the bunny
it felt like we were in the show 'the challenge', to the food network watchers :)

no mall tomorrow, back to original plan: going on sunday with katelyn
i don't know what i'm gonna do tomorrow, probably gonna hangout with mom
yeah, not so much the party tomorrow..
i couldn't find anywhere to stay, because if i stay at tina's, her sister might be home when we get back, and she might know what we're UP to. not cool.
she'll like, kick our asses. TINA should ask her sister what she's doing fri night, so i can know if i can stay over or not :)
i'm kind of paranoid about parties now a days, after seeing, hearing, and knowing what happened to all my HG's & H's, it's kinda traumatizing.
spring break..isnt this week..it's next week..
i'm so sorry paul, :( i'll hangout with you over the weekend.
agh, we planned out a surprise thing, and a movieday and making food together all week too, but my fault. no. school's fault. sorrrrryyy

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Dear Blog, 3/26/09

Disneyland was really fun, i had a blast
we got free ice cream, and this guy that works there was super cute
but i already HAVE someone haha, whatever
but i'm tired of all the walking we had to do

i'm happier today, this got me away from what bothered me
but i'm still tired of boys

school was eh, i had a couple laughs, like always
i love SHUHlean, haha
made a bunny cake today, i think we got like 3rd....4th place hahaha
but i'm tired the same thing everyday

food..i didn't eat food
only icecream, and breakfast, and a small bag of chips
lol, and i literally forced myself to eat brunch, which was like 3 bites
i'm tired of not having an appetite

my saturday plan got cancelled,
so i'm gonna probably go watch a movie with jasmine & kevin
going to the mall tomorrow probably
PAUL's coming down!
i'm tired of doing nothing on the weekend like last time

i'm gonna go driving today, hopefully..
i'm tired of it being postponed

i'm gonna go out this weekend,
and find myself a lover
i'm tired of waiting, and then breaking, and cycle starts all over
but that's how life is, i guess!

pizzles

this is something that can take me out of my bitchin zone
skipping 6th tomorrow, thank fucking budddhaaaaawww
kay, also wrappping up what tina sayd
-disneyland tomorrow
-party friday
-possibly movie saturday
-OR bonfire in coronaaa dell MARRR :D if i have a ride..
-PAUL COMES DOWN<3333333
-beach date :)
-maybe dress shopping with katelyn
-latestart
-SPRINGbreak
-hangout with paul
-hangout with paul
-hangout with paul x100
-go see uncle phi =)
-enrolling in behind the wheel
-driving
-written test
-driving
-driving
-driving x100
-kathy luu's dinner party<3

bestfriend

i'm sorry tina, for getting you into this
i know how you'd feel inside, but i know you wont let me down
thank you for doing what you did last night
i know it bothers you a lot inside
this is bothering me mentally, emotionally, and physically too
i lost my appetite today. but i forced myself to eat
isn't that weird, when i get mad/sad/sidetracked, i can't eat
i remember when that happened a LONG while back, i didn't eat for like 24hrs and the next day i only ate like, a candy bar or something
i hate when this happens, everything just looks.. nasty when i'm mad/sad

i couldn't focus today in school at all
every 5 minutes, it would pop up
every little thing he says, comes up in my head at different times throughout the day
i don't even know how i handled it last night without saying anything
i'm actually really amazed at myself
and i'm glad i didn't hurt anyone last night, or break anything
after i hungup, i couldn't sleep till 2 or something
i was so mad, and bothered
i was on the rage of tears because i was SO mad, not because i was sad over a heartbreaker
i talked to jasmine about it around midnight, it was okay..i couldn't say much because i was too mad.
but it was soooo pathetic, annoying, furiating, that i didn't know what to do
but i finally just fell asleep
wow. it was a really, bad night..
i wasted so much time, honestly. i wish i hadn't
i can't believe what i thought about some people, can be completely wrong
i was so sure about this one too.

idk how to explain it

i'm so overwhelmed
i'm so mad, that i can't even express it
i'm so mellow right now, because i'm so mad it cant come out all at one time
or everyones gonna die
i need to punch a wall
or shoot someone in the fucking face
especially someone in particular
i think i'm gonna write it all down how i feel
i was so mad at the moment, i can't even remember anything that happened
-_- maybe like 1 or 2 things, but..seriously
i can't even sleep now. fucking assdouchbagjerkfuckerbitch, i hate you at this point.

debating

hm. me & tina are still deciding if we should go to the party on friday or not
i mean, it's a helllla of a way to spend a friday night
but to see all those people there?
that we knew for like..a long time..
and it's like HELLLLLLLLLLLLLa weird to see them
shit, idk. i got my STUFF ready for it, but mayb we'll do something else
idk, i kinda wanna go
but then, i kinda dont

KATHY LUUUUU is ma boo<3

thank GOD she's having another dinner party
her last one was SOO fun
I had a blast, im so glad
im gonna shop for my dress soon, maybe try to find a fedora that Fits my head -_-
gonna meet some qt's, ima prolly bring a date idk yet.
:) I hope gwenny & kpham comes again this timeeeee!

chris, mendozaaaaa
love you for the mcdonalds :)
and girl scout cookies
im excited for his pool party in spring break too, YESYES
ima be sexy that day
party on friday night w/ tina,&jasmine
partys, partys, partys
that's all ima do for now.

THURSDAY

i'm going to DISNEYLAND with jasmine & cesar!!!!!! :))))
i'm pretty damn excited about it..
i get to leave class early & everything, and YEAH! :)
we're gonna go to the disneyland hotel and get a private tour and stuff
:D AAAHH, i can't wait! i'ma bring my camera haha
i've never been in the hotel, this is exciting.
HAHA<3

trip!

i was trippin OUT today
was hanging out with an hg, and then this chick came by and sayd something
and my hg came up to her and was like wtf did you say?
and the chick PUSHED her, hard too
and they got in this BIGGGG ass cat fight
i got front row ^_______^
it lasted FOREVER, no joke. the teachers didn't come for a WHILE
i was scared, i didn't want anything to happennn to my hg
cus they were going hardcore
HAHA, shaline was SOOOO cute!! i LOVE HER, she was like GO A!! GO A!!!! KICK HER ASS! PUS HER DOWN!!!
LMAO LMAO, i couldn't stop laughing when she said that
she was forreal too!! it was hella cute.

haha i matched with chris&jasmine today
LOL, well not really jasmine...but s'okay
driving this week, i'm EXCITED :D
haven't driven since summer, i hope i dont CRASH

kat von dizzzzle

:) so me & tina went to bt initially to go see kat von d
but then the line was way too long
so then we went to watch the race to witch mountain
which was AWESOMEEE
then we went to barnes and nobles to find tina's ap book
and then WE SAW KAT VON D!!! :)
and i took pictures of her, she was hawt.
these are like, the best pictures i could get of her
too many people blocked her

3in1

i think i'm making up for all the blogs i've missed this march
i wonder why i didn't blog so much, idk!
i've been busy :]
so anyway, i kinda love the phone i'm using right now
it's so interesting
but for sure, i know i can't let go of my sk
i'm never gonna be able to go out of the 'sidekick' family.
once you go sidekick, you CAN'T go back.
i'ma go back to my sk next week or two
for now, i'm trying to learn how to adapt to new things
i think it's a positive
i can't depend of my sk forever, even though i probably will
i mean, before, my computer was what i depended on
but then, i didn't have it for 3-4 months, and i learned to live without it
even though it was HELL. but i can do without the computer now
idk so much about the phone though, thats my LIFEline
this phone runs out of battery so fast....like 3-4 hours, maybe because i'm using it too much

okokok tinas coming tomorrow morning so i gotta clean, get everything redy, find outfit, then sleep, HOLLLLLLLLLLLA

dude.

i love my best friend
when it comes down to anything, it's always us two left
she's dramaless, and she's a one&only
don't know how to explain it
she's the second most important thing to me, next to family
well actually, she IS considered family, so she's one of the most important things to me.
man. :)

today

woke up, went to my mom's office, then lexus dealership, discussed my driving situation with my mom!, then shop, then frozen yogurt :)), now tina got me into looking for cars, i mean, forreal, it's coming FAST and i'm so excited.
i have kinda a while to go but not really, all thass left is
-wait for my certificate to come
-enroll in behind the wheel class this week
-go take my written test for my permit on friday
-50hrs behind the wheel practice
-get license
-get car
-DRIVE!

might do something tonight with tina, or jasmine idk
but tomorrow: go to see kat von dee with tina! ^_____^
i'm excited, thank buddha for the weekend YO.

i miss tina le & andy! :(

cahsee

STUPID STUPID STUPID ALPHABETICAL SEATING CHART SHIT PUT ME NEXT TO A FUCKIN BITCH I HATE.
goddamn. it's like, we're not on harbor. then why do i see a whore? right?
right. -_____-
stupid test was so fucking boring. i couldn't text either. UGH. had a writing section, i wrote like it was NOTHIN. my mind was flowinnnnn man. i wrote about obama;) YEAH NIGGA, haven't had my mind runnin like that IN A WHILE. i don't even know where it all came from! after that, man, i was DRAINED. i was like dead, by rop. no more brain fuel HHAHA. tomorrow will be the same shit, well. mayb i might have to think a little harder because it's math.

so, i've been SEXUALLL ;) lately. LMAO, haven't i always been.
HAHA, no jk.
but i think i'm missin some of that lovin from a guy.
hahahaha i mean, it's been a while since i had the sexytime.
well, the last 'thing' i had was in winterbreak. well, idk WHAT it was, wasn't serious enough for an official thing, but definately wasn't a FRIEND thing either.
it was NIIIIICE tho :)
it started out unexpectedly, but ended pretty expected..
no more details, if you weren't there for it, then you snooze, you lose.

i miss paul mmmm. haven't seen him in FOREVER
he's moving back down here, i'm pretty excited. we're not CLOSE, but close ENOUGH :)
whaaddaaa qt! he better hangout with me when he comes down

<3

I miss my grandma in vn
she lives too far for me to visit her, she probably thinks I forgot, but I haven't.
if she lived nearer, I would visit her like helllaa.
I wish I had the chance to. I've visited her when I was 2, 8, and 13.
I don't think im ever gonna see her again, she lives across the world. but I love her so much, even though we don't talk that much. I mean, she's still my grandma.

malllin

went to the mall with keven today
saw rachael<3
and bought STUFFF :)

I FINALLY GOT MY 2 FINGER RINGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELLL YES

ive been doing my driver ed for about...4 days..3!
and i took my final exam today
and i passed!!!!!!!!!!! :))))))
now ima wait for my certificate to come, and then my mom's gonna find me an instructor,(share with tina), and i'll be practicing till i complete my 50hrs or something..idk
HAHA, yeah.
and then, HELLL YESSS watch out road, cus here comes trang =)

dude, got bc togo today, it was so fucking good. i couldn't finish it. it was too much, toooooo goood<3
saw vincent, and his BABYSISTER<333333333333333



ohhh!!!! and i won the storybook contest in history. :)
well, me & jennifer did, and we both got certificates, free hw passes, and an 'excuse' on our most recent test ^_^

and bragging rights.. :)

sunday!

so today was so like, 'chill'
woke up, went out to eat, went to get frozen yogurt, get sushi, home
hm....yeah!

so im actually not gaining weight. :)
i went on the scale last night. i actually lost a pound hahahaha. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i was so scared..
i watched click again, i cried, again. -_-. talked to jenny alot today, someone misses meeeeeee :)))))) i'm spose to call her back, but i'm still eating..
watching ZOOM right now, heh, its some kind of superhero movie, idk. nothing else on tv. i'm waiting for dh to go on. its been WAYYYYYAAAY too long.

oh, i dyed my hair yesterday :D

march

just isn't a blogging month.
i've been forgetting to blog and shit
been caught up on other stuff

lots of rop, so i've been texting a lot less
and i'm kinda more focused on school nowadays
so focused, i forgot to make plans this weekend
it completely slipped my mind.
i'll come up with something though, i don't wanna stay home all weekend, lame!
rop monday-thursday, means. mcdonalds/7eleven sandwhiches monday-thursday.
i don't feel like i'm getting fatter, but i know i am
this isn't good for me
its been 2 weeks like that. crazy.
never had that much mcdonalds in a week
it's all that my mom can get me so i can eat in rop.
ehhhh. i've been behind on the whole social shit this week
i hardly see the people i do at school anymore
i don't go around school at lunch, i stay in the library
so basically, i see the same people everyday
keven, jasmine, shaline, jenny, nelson and occassionally julie
so weird. oh & hong too


people pissed me off the past two days
i think it's moodswings. my teacher made fun of me, so i became her worst bitch-nightmare. yeah.
and today, i got pissed because someone kept nagging me about this stupid shit.
so annoying..
i wanna go shopping.

qt

new boy.
:)
cute boy.
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, maybe.
idk yet.
nuff info for now.
;D






& i pray for my loved ones..

still..

the thoughts are bothering me
like when you get a trickling in the back of your throat and it wont go away
and its the only thing you can think of,
and you wish it's not in your head
yes, i'm sosososo worried about everyone still..
and after talking to andy today..its even worse.
knowing the possibilities.
this isnt happening.
two nights in a row:

"I pray for my loved ones, I pray for their troubles, and everything that they're going through. I pray that everything will be okay, I pray that time will heal everything. I pray for everything bad to go away. I pray that Buddha/God will find a little bit of heart for them, and let this go by easy. Everyone makes mistakes, lesson learned, lets move on, PLEASE. I pray that NOTHING will happen to any of them. Just go away, just go away. I pray that everything will go back to normal, like nothing happened. JUST LET THIS GO for them. I pray for everything to go away. I pray for everyone to stay up, don't fall."
*v, k, t, a, &kf.

Happy March

im 16 minutes late.
this is for feb28

tonight was funn
fasho got my mind off THINGS.
met abuncha people! :)
and saw some old people
met a....qtie.... :-*

hahahahahaha I can't stop thinking about when I was talking to him, and when he was saying something. all a sudden I heard 'your hairs so hard' and I look up & its TINA. HAAHAHAHA couldn't stop laughing. I KNEW WHAT YOU WERE DOIN GIRRL!
yeh. fun :]

stupid cheesecake fact bill hurt my fucken head.