bestfriend

i'm sorry tina, for getting you into this
i know how you'd feel inside, but i know you wont let me down
thank you for doing what you did last night
i know it bothers you a lot inside
this is bothering me mentally, emotionally, and physically too
i lost my appetite today. but i forced myself to eat
isn't that weird, when i get mad/sad/sidetracked, i can't eat
i remember when that happened a LONG while back, i didn't eat for like 24hrs and the next day i only ate like, a candy bar or something
i hate when this happens, everything just looks.. nasty when i'm mad/sad

i couldn't focus today in school at all
every 5 minutes, it would pop up
every little thing he says, comes up in my head at different times throughout the day
i don't even know how i handled it last night without saying anything
i'm actually really amazed at myself
and i'm glad i didn't hurt anyone last night, or break anything
after i hungup, i couldn't sleep till 2 or something
i was so mad, and bothered
i was on the rage of tears because i was SO mad, not because i was sad over a heartbreaker
i talked to jasmine about it around midnight, it was okay..i couldn't say much because i was too mad.
but it was soooo pathetic, annoying, furiating, that i didn't know what to do
but i finally just fell asleep
wow. it was a really, bad night..
i wasted so much time, honestly. i wish i hadn't
i can't believe what i thought about some people, can be completely wrong
i was so sure about this one too.